Monday, March 22, 2010
Well it has been almost 10 weeks since Alex has been at IMG Academy. I have missed him greatly. I think if I had to say one thing that I miss most about not having Alex here(there are many) it would be the music that he brought into our home. If you don't know Alex well you might have missed this great ability he has for finding great new and old music. Every morning Alex would be up before anyone (I am talking school days here) and be in the kitchen, hooking up his ipod to the stereo system and making a play list. Some days it would be Reliant K or a local alternitive rock band with great lyrics and some days it would be Frank Sinatra,Micheal Bouble.orJohn Mayor. There were also days when he would say "Mom mom come here you have to listen to this song. I am so thankful that most of the time I did sit and listen intently to the words of songs that he felt I needed to hear. I'm sad for the times I did not... too busy or too distracted. I think for Alex music is like a window into his soul it expresses things for him that are too hard to express. His time at IMG he would say has been great,he's enjoying being on his own, the friendships he's developed and all the great training he has gotten. The only extremely hard thing has been his latest injury which has forced him to be on the bench for the better part of the last 4 weeks-Planters Fasciitis. Not a injury that ends a career but certainly has put his playing time on hold. There is no good time for an injury that puts you out but it seemed as if this could not be a worse timing with the Dallas Cup rooster being decided. Doug and I both have prayed and wept for Alex knowing how much he wanted this. How are we really doing with opening our hand?
I was having coffee with a dear friend a couple weeks ago we were talking about our kids,jewelry, God all good stuff and she says to me "you hear a lot of this let go and let God,well I think we should cling to God."(I don't think she knew I was writing a blog called "opening my hand") I know my friend well enough to know that if I had said to her- it is hard to cling to God with full or clenched fists; She would have absolutely agreed . I' m just not that quick though-and I'm glad I didn't say anything at the time because it has made me really think about the clinging part. I absolutely agree with her . It is not enough to just give my stuff to God I then have to cling to him and believe in what he says. I think I have been learning to cling to God and his promises knowing that it is OK to weep The Bible says Jesus wept- Jesus wept when he saw his friends weeping over the death of there brother. He did this knowing that he was going to raise Lazarus from the dead.Jesus gave us this example of being moved to tears even though he knew what he was going to do. Yeah I am so thankful that God put in this the smallest of all verses in the Bible -I think he did it for us parents. I love that He acknowledges the feelings and outwardly shows compassion. What a great God. Now that 's the kind of faith I'm striving for -I am not quite there but one of my favorite verses has always been found in Jeremiah 29:11-13 "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to give you a hope and a future.You will call to me and pray to Me and I will listen to you.You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. Help me Lord to give to you all my tears for the disappointments in this life help me also to cling to you and search for you with all my heart.
What about Alex ? Gosh according to Doug(he is in Florida with Alex right now ) he is doing great even with this set back -he is truly setting an example of believing and trusting-yes disappointed at times,but believing the best knowing God is in control. The last time I saw Alex was right before this injury got so bad it put him on the bench. Of course he was spinning tunes. The first song he played was called: These are the Word I would say by Sidewalk Prophets. I can't think of a more perfect song that he could have given us both. I believe he was saying to us yes I do believe all these things that you would say. You really need to listen to this song it says so much of what I want to say to my son and all my children. The song begins with being up at 3 in the morning(how many times have we been up praying for our kids at that time ?) and grabbing something to write with to tell someone how loved they are by God and what great things God is going to do with them and through them. It really captures I believe a parents heart for their Children."Be strong in the Lord,never give up hope,you're gonna do great things I already know, Gods got his hand on you,so don't live life in fear,forgive and forget but don't forget why you're here...take you're time and pray... These are the Words I would say.....
I was having coffee with a dear friend a couple weeks ago we were talking about our kids,jewelry, God all good stuff and she says to me "you hear a lot of this let go and let God,well I think we should cling to God."(I don't think she knew I was writing a blog called "opening my hand") I know my friend well enough to know that if I had said to her- it is hard to cling to God with full or clenched fists; She would have absolutely agreed . I' m just not that quick though-and I'm glad I didn't say anything at the time because it has made me really think about the clinging part. I absolutely agree with her . It is not enough to just give my stuff to God I then have to cling to him and believe in what he says. I think I have been learning to cling to God and his promises knowing that it is OK to weep The Bible says Jesus wept- Jesus wept when he saw his friends weeping over the death of there brother. He did this knowing that he was going to raise Lazarus from the dead.Jesus gave us this example of being moved to tears even though he knew what he was going to do. Yeah I am so thankful that God put in this the smallest of all verses in the Bible -I think he did it for us parents. I love that He acknowledges the feelings and outwardly shows compassion. What a great God. Now that 's the kind of faith I'm striving for -I am not quite there but one of my favorite verses has always been found in Jeremiah 29:11-13 "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to give you a hope and a future.You will call to me and pray to Me and I will listen to you.You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. Help me Lord to give to you all my tears for the disappointments in this life help me also to cling to you and search for you with all my heart.
What about Alex ? Gosh according to Doug(he is in Florida with Alex right now ) he is doing great even with this set back -he is truly setting an example of believing and trusting-yes disappointed at times,but believing the best knowing God is in control. The last time I saw Alex was right before this injury got so bad it put him on the bench. Of course he was spinning tunes. The first song he played was called: These are the Word I would say by Sidewalk Prophets. I can't think of a more perfect song that he could have given us both. I believe he was saying to us yes I do believe all these things that you would say. You really need to listen to this song it says so much of what I want to say to my son and all my children. The song begins with being up at 3 in the morning(how many times have we been up praying for our kids at that time ?) and grabbing something to write with to tell someone how loved they are by God and what great things God is going to do with them and through them. It really captures I believe a parents heart for their Children."Be strong in the Lord,never give up hope,you're gonna do great things I already know, Gods got his hand on you,so don't live life in fear,forgive and forget but don't forget why you're here...take you're time and pray... These are the Words I would say.....
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