PACE: Losing pride,gaining hope-college auditions

Last day! We get to Chicago at about 7:30 last night, some how a flight that should have only taken at most an hour and a half took almost 3 hours. It involved a lot of circling above O'hara . It definitely made for a longer night by the time we got our luggage, rented a car and got to the hotel it was 9:30 pm. Our hotel was beautiful and because I said something when we finally found the hotel lobby (it wasn't on the same floor we entered on and the bell hop didn't tell us where to go) the nice women at the registration desk put us on the executive floor-score. Free breakfast and snacks! Double score! We ordered room service-club sandwiches and fell asleep exhausted. We wake up,have breakfast and head towards the hotel where Pace would hold there auditions. We meet a really nice girl and her mom. It was so fun talking to them and I said a quick prayer for her finding out Pace was her number one school. Pace asked us to schedule 4 hours for the audition so we felt they were really going to try and get to know each prospective student. We knew they only wanted to see one contemporary monologue and then one scene with a partner. I say my goodbyes and leave Jessie to do her thing. At about 10 o clock she texts me "all done". She comes back to the hotel and talks about a semi disappointing ending to an other wise great week. "First I go in and do my one monologue they really seemed to like it they laughed and asked if I could stay for the scene work with a partner. I said yes but they asked nothing else, nothing about me, not if I had any questions, nothing. This seemed strange and impersonal to me and I thought well maybe with my partner they will. (Pace makes you send in an audition tape with 2 contemporary monologues,your résumé and head shot before they even grant you an in person audition) The fact that they asked for 4 hours made us think it would be more about getting to know you. Jessie does a scene with a partner, she gets no feed back then either. Then they tell the group who they wanted to see for a callback Jessie wasn't on the list. As she left they did say they were still considering her for there new program which will start this fall -film acting. Ugh well OK just disappointing, going in Jessie was not feeling this school but still to go from being called a young Meryl Streep to not getting a call back just stinks. "I started this week with a disappointment not getting the role I thought I wanted and I ended with a disappointment not getting a call back at Pace. But I think I'm learning to see more accurately what it is -it is pride that makes me feel this way. Honestly now as painful as it was when I heard I didn't get that part I'm really glad I didn't. It would have been so stressful for me to be away all week if I had. I really do love the role I got and now I can be in cell block tango. God always knows what is best for me. the pain I feel is more about hurt pride than anything else. I didn't even want to go to Pace and I trust that God knows what's best for me. This week has been amazing I have met so many talented and wonderful people, I have grown as an actress and a person. Now the real waiting begins". I can not even begin to tell you how privileged I feel to be this girls mom, we have laughed,cried and prayed and I am more than excited to see where God puts her. Here' s to living with an open hand! "And so, Lord, where do I put my hope? My only hope is in You." Psalm 39:7